Friday, August 20, 2010
Dan suggested the cause could simply be fatigue. In fact that is very often the culprit. My most recent endeavor has been painting the wood work in the house. It has been very slow going. Not only is it a tedious task, my body rebels and frequently stalls out. My mental flag has never flown full mast but as of late, there have been many white flag days of total surrender. Once the floors were done, the worn trim was glaring. As the trim gets a face lift, I notice how the ceilings look dingy. To the ceiling observation, Dan simply silently retreated to his office.
And so it is with life. As we grow in our spiritual walk, God brings out all the dinginess a bit at a time and gives us a fresh look. Once He cleans up one area, He in His mercy and kindness moves us to another. I have asked Him if this week was from fatigue, insecurities or is there yet something else He is calling us to put aside. It possibly is a combination of the three.
There is no conscious reason to feel blue. No concerns out of the ordinary to fret about. I thought of two dear friends who have recently lost spouses. Others dear to us are struggling with other serious difficulties. As I pray for them in their situations, I ask God to always remind me of my many blessings; even the melancholy because I know He continues to work in me.
Be confident of this, that He who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.
Philippians 1:6 (NIV)